Sometimes, i feel like like i really dont belong here, like i'm supposed to be some place else

‏إظهار الرسائل ذات التسميات Friends. إظهار كافة الرسائل
‏إظهار الرسائل ذات التسميات Friends. إظهار كافة الرسائل

الجمعة، 24 ديسمبر 2010

محدش بينجرح اوى غير لما بيحب اوى

Nowadays I consider her as my sister, we talk everyday, when I go out doing anything she is the first person I call to come with me, if I went alone when I return I call her or pass by her home to tell her everything I did.

The recent character I knew about her is that she can do what I ask her for without thinking a lot, yesterday on our way home w passed by a cinema I told her " let's see 678" she agreed at once! I told her "really ?!"
she said "yaaa come on".

Two minutes later I found us at the movies watching the film!

You know I'm that kind of person who think for at least 15 min. before deciding what to drink!

I loved doing such spontaneous actions with her, I loved that I did't take time to consider things & call my parents as I usually do with the rest of my friends!!

I share with her most of my thoughts & problems.
she knows a lot about me & my daily news.

She is my friend since K.G. but now she earned the title "sister" by her care & efforts of making me happy & encouraging  me to do things that I'm afraid of, she believes in me and the most important thing is that I trust her.

Anyone knows me will think that I'm a very good & highly qualified person but I do't trust them because I think that I deceive them by my charisma!

I appear to be a highly self confident girl but deep inside me I know that it is not the truth.

I do so because I do't want people to know that I'm ordinary & weak!

With her I almost be myself so I trust her when she tells me that I can do this & qualified for that.

It is a very nice feeling when someone tells you good things _Facts_ about you, it is very refreshing and highly motivating.

The only thing I'm afraid of now is that our relation will eventually turn bad at some point :(

'cause through all my life I loved people & gave them more care and love than they actually deserve and they always takes advantage of me.

That makes me totally believe in 
"احب حبيبك هونا ما ..."